Archive | July 2010

Struggle

I think i am like a lot of people, women, mostly who struggle, i mean REALLY struggle with weight. I can gain weight, no problems there. However, i am unable to lose it quite as well as i would like. Since having my 4th baby about a year and a half ago, i have been able to lose any weight. This is probably the most frustrating thing about my life right now. It depresses me to a very high degree. I just can’t get a grip on it. Now while i know people generally associate being overweight with over-eating, it is simply not true.

My sister and i started a weight loss journey in February and she now looks amazing, i have gained 15 pounds. Go figure. We each gave up things that were unhealthy in our diet. I gave up things that i love: bread, fast food, and pasta. I don’t eat sweets for the most part, i am so not a sweets person so i didn’t need to give that up. And we made exercise a part of the journey. I am running and walking 3.5 miles a day (in what is now melt your face off heat). So how is it that my sister has lost an amazing amount of weight and i have gained weight?? Simply the most frustrating journey i have ever embarked on.

I do have a thyroid condition, my thyroid does not work for the most part and i am on medicine for it. This cannot be the reason why though. I just can’t see myself being this weight for the rest of my life. I cannot be this weight for the rest of my life, i will be utterly devestated. I am for the most part healthy, but am just more over weight then i need to be. I just can’t fathom what my next step is in this journey.

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